My Good

Lately I feel as though I am working hard to curb feelings of jealousy and work to remain patient. Now I don't want to give the impression that I'm not happy for others success because I definitely am, but often there is that feeling of "when will it be my turn" that takes over.  I find that turning to my faith during these times helps but still at times there is this nagging feeling that something more should be happening.

I want to be able to turn this feeling inward and ask myself some tough questions. Am I doing enough to accomplish what I want? Am I too busy comparing myself to others and not looking at all I've accomplished?  I know that we are all on our own journey so I want to be able to really look at my journey and focus on where I want to go. Not make rush decisions in order to keep up with others.

I know that my own good is constantly manifesting in my life. I know that what is meant for me will be and there is not much that I can do to speed up or slow down the timing. So I will work hard and keep my vision at the center of my mind. I will spend my time feeling good about all that is to come and push past any sort of anxiety or thoughts of "when and how".  Good is manifesting all the time and I simply have to open up to it.

New Strategy for the New Year

Lately I've felt like I've been pulled in so many directions that I've been unable to give important goals my full attention. This can tend to make me feel stressful and question my dedication to my goals. Often times I have to remind myself that my path may not be a straight road but one that has twists and turns. In the end I know that if I push forward I will eventually reach my destination. That these twists and turns are valuable lessons and experiences that will further me in my life.

Sometimes I have to remind myself of this fact over and over again. I have goals that I've wanted to accomplish in 2012 and is some cases 2011, and 2010 that still have yet to manifest in my life. Instead of beating myself up about it, I've decided to  take a look at my strategy. I have the opportunity to put a new plan in place, learn what hasn't been working and do something different.

All life experiences play a purpose in our life and life is not just about accomplishing goals but also developing a deeper connection to our life force.  I know that I have done significant work and continue to do work in really appreciating who I am and what I bring to the table. This work will assist me in manifesting the life of my dreams and I know that it will also assist you in manifesting a fuller, happier and prosperous vision. 

Ritual for Moving into 2013

Yesterday I heard a wonderful service at Unity of New York and what stood at to me the most is, what am I bringing into the new year with me. Are there old thoughts and experiences that I need to leave in the past, instead of continuing to let them influences me in 2013. So for this New Year's Eve I will spend some time saying goodbye to experiences that I do not want to bring into 2013 with me.

I will:
1. I will make a list of all the limiting thoughts or past expereinces that I do not want to bring into 2013
2. Thank all these expereinces for the lessons that they have taught me.
3. Write out what I would like to create in 2013. Expreinces I would like to manifest, attitudes and beliefs I would like to embody.
4. I will do a creative exericise to capture what I would like to manifest, make a college, do a painting, write a poem or even a dance.
5. Celebrate all the beauty, joy and sucess that 2013 will bring.

Happy 2013!!!

Holiday Time

As we approach the holidays I can't think of a busier time. There is always some sort of party going on, friends and family to visit and people coming in to town to visit you. This can bring with it a lot of emotions, some joyous and others not so much. I myself try to focus on the whole picture during this time. Yes, I want my goals and what I'm accomplishing to always be a top priority in my life, but without taking a wider look I could let some really important things slip by. What is a life of accomplishing tasks without having supportive relationship that bring joy into your life.

 

Relationships go through phases, they are a living organism always changing, becoming stronger or at times moving out of our lives to make way for something new. There was a time when the holidays came around and I focused on the relationships that were no longer in my life, or the things that I did not accomplish during the year.  But I began to realize that this is a time for celebrating all that we have accomplished and all the lessons we've learned.

  

Not only should we be celebrating our accomplishments but it is also important to celebrate the people in our lives that helped us make it happen. I have a long list of family and friends who have supported me with starting my own business and have helped me through challenges. Some of those people are no longer in my life but I know that I can still celebrate the lessons they helped me learn. 

 

So during this busy time I plan to take some time out for me. To take a look at all the wonderful things that are happening in my life and be grateful. An attitude of gratitude not only brings joy and love into your life but also tells the Universe that you are ready and able to receive more.  I'm wishing you all a happy holiday season, filled with love, joy, gratitude and wonderful manifestations.

Labeling Failure

What is failure? Lately I've been thinking a lot about what it takes to make and not make something happen. I was feeling down because I was unable to hold a function at the time I had originally planned and I saw that as a failure on my part. I then got into a discussion with people in my life about what failure is, and is postponing or not doing something a failure. Is failure trying and things not turning out the way you like, or can you include not trying at all as a failure. I personally was including  not holding the event as a failure, for me not trying or not trying hard enough means that I failed. 

Thinking about it now I think failure is an interesting word, one for me that holds a lot of negative emotions and weight. According to Webster Merriam dictionary online failure means  "a state of inability to perform a normal function, lack of success". In the case of the event I had definitely failed to perform certain functions but in no way was there a lack of success. For one I beleive that I successfully learned some much needed lessons about what it takes for me to have these events. I saw the  kind of effort and support  I need to have in place in order to keep moving.

Furthermore what I try to remind myself is that there can only be a "lack of success" when you give up. We never know when or how success is coming so there is always a chance for it to show up. But more important words like 'failure" are labels that we give meaning to. Something can only be a failure if I deem it so, and so it is up to me to declare positive, encouraging words to all my endeavors. I get to look at my experiences as chances to learn and grow, realizing that it is ok to let things go that are no longer working for me or make the necessary adjustments to my time schedule.

Calling Out Fear

Right now I've started studying for an exam that I think will help me in my professional career. As I was studying a barrage of negative thoughts hit me. Do I have enough experience to pass, am I dedicated enough to commit to a rigorous study schedule? The negative thoughts eventually evolved to me wondering if the test was necessary at all. I began to go back and forth on whether I wanted to take the test and if that is truly where I wanted to put my focus at this time. 

This morning I was reading "Think and Grow Rich" by Napoleon Hill, I've just begun the chapter on Fear and it stated "Indecision is the seedling of fear! Indecision crystallizes into doubt, the two blend and become fear!" It was like the words were speaking right to my earlier conversation about whether or not I should take the test. At the base of my indecision and doubt was fear. Fear that I wasn't good enough, smart enough or dedicated enough to pass the exam.

I had a conversation with a coach recently regarding my fear and we began to take a look at all the goals that I've accomplished in the past. I was smart and dedicated enough to complete school, to switch industries and find a job at a non-profit and to complete a truck load of other significant accomplishments. We began to look at what it took for me to accomplish goals in the past. I began to remember how I put plans in place, set time aside and asked for support. I then began to look at the goals ahead of me now and figure out how I could use those same strategies that worked in the past. I won't say that the fear disappeared immediately but I will say that more and more my focus became my next action steps. Excitement started to build and although I knew it would be a lot of work I began to see myself taking action steps and visualizing the results I wanted. Soon there was no time to focus of fear. After uncovering what was really at the base of my indecision and doubt I knew that I couldn't let fear and self-doubt stop me for going for the big win.

Mourning Change

Sometimes if feels like the affects of a change can hit you out of no where. I have been going through a change that actually started back in May but I felt like all of a sudden the implications of that change have really stuck out to me. Maybe for me it's a sign that I am finally beginning to let things and people go. Or maybe it could signal a bigger change that needs to take place in my life.

Change is a natural part of life but as we all know it can be hard. For me I feel like when the change is happening I'm so wrapped up in it that I don't have the time to mourn what I've lost. Even though I know that what I've lost in most cases is for the better, and is making room for something greater. There is still that since of losing what is comfortable and familiar. I am realizing that at times it is okay to be with my feelings around a situation. Not necessarily stay stuck but give myself the time and space to feel what I feel.  From this space I can better mourn what I've lost and make plans for what needs to happen next.

I think that putting plans in place around anything in our lives excites us to move forward. Hope begins to become the dominant emotion and that can replace that since of morning that may have originally been felt. Hope mixed with faith that everything is already working out in perfect order are what keeps me motivated to execute my plans and step into the next stage of my life.